Hello all!
I really don't know what to say...or how to word this post...
so I'll just go with it, and see what happens...
It won't have escaped your attention, that I've been rather distant for a while... posts are few and far between, and when they appear they really don't say very much!
well, there are one or two fairly good reasons for that...
So....
I have news...
I'll get the bad news out of the way first...
It is with a VERY VERY heavy heart that I have decided to close Pollycraft.
YES, I know... I only re-opened a few months ago! but I think I have finally realised this isn't where I want to be any more...
I'll willingly admit...deciding to re-open was a mistake...
The whole reason I closed in the first place was because I'd fallen out of love with it... I'd begun to hate drawing, and crafting.... I'd begun to get SO stressed out with it that it was affecting my family... and that was awful!
Our beautiful little Dylan coming along was the tipping point really... and I knew that life needed to be different... closing was for the best!
but then we had a bit of a difficult time in Dylans first few months... and think I saw a return to Pollycraft as something that would help me get through it...
honestly.... it helped at first, re-building the website, and getting creative again gave me something else to focus on, and helped ease my constant panic and worry about everything we were dealing with....
As soon as I opened though it became just as stressful as it had before... and I knew I'd made a stupid decision!
I decided I'd have to persevere for a while...
Then just a week after I re-opened we got a MASSIVE shock...
I discovered I was pregnant again!!
in those early days I honestly just couldn't think straight... my head was just bursting with a million and one worries about EVERYTHING...
I'd only had a c-section 9 months earlier... and we'd had such a lot of worries with Dylan...
it took a LONG time for the news to sink in....
gradually as we got through the first few doctor/midwife/consultant appointments things started to feel less scary, and suddenly felt 'real'
naturally we've got concerns, but scans have been re-assuring... and we are now JUST OVER THE MOON DELIGHTED....
so that's the ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL news!!!
It's looking likely that I'll be booked in for a c-section between Christmas and New Year...
(pretty rubbish timing huh?)
and....the most exciting part?!.....
We are having a little bundle of pink!!
I can genuinely say, I really didn't mind either way...
but....
in a house full of boys, I have to admit to looking forward to dresses, and dolls and pigtails...
Some news eh???
so, in a nutshell...
I'm not enjoying Pollycraft as much as I should (and how can I expect customers to if I don't?!)
My hearts SO not in it... so I just don't have the passion to re build it to what it was before...
And Kev is SUPER busy at work, so time is a big issue too...
Plus... that stupid little brain of mine has had to learn the hard way that life is far too short, and that there are so many more important things going on...
Kev's been getting one day off a fortnight lately...so it would be LOVELY to spend that one day together as a family, and not have him just letting me catch up with Pollycraft stuff...
We will soon be expecting our fifth family member... (less than 12 weeks!!!!)
Our gorgeous little Chappy is now a walking, talking bundle of trouble... into EVERYTHING, and bloomin' hard work at times... but SO SO worth the aching back, and tired eyes!!!
And our not so little 14 year old STAR! has been quietly just accepting everything that's been going on, and not complained one little bit that his life has had to change so dramatically... he's just started his GSCE's and has a lot on his plate at the moment, and he SO deserves a Mum who is there for him, and has the time to have fun again!
Say no more really...
YES, I'm an idiot...
I shouldn't have re-opened for the reasons I did... I knew deep down it wasn't for the best...
But, you know what...
I can hold my hands up and admit my mistake... and so what if I look stupid for a while...
I'm a whole lot happier for it!!
The store will close on the 23rd October...
So you've got 2 weeks to grab anything you want before they are gone forever...
The
MEGA bundles will remain on sale until close... and there are also
3 new images in the shop...
You can get all 3 for the price of 1..
just £1.49
There will be NO new challenges set over on the Challenge blog...
HUGE thanks go to the WONDERFUL Design Team!
You are all STARS... and I thank you so much for your talent, your support, and your understanding...
I honestly can't thank you enough!!
Okay... I think I've said plenty now...
I think I feel better....
I'm sorry if I've disappointed anyone...
it just needs to be done...
phew...
I'm not going anywhere in a hurry...
I'll still be sharing news on here for a while....
This blog will eventually become more of a general/personal/family blog...
I haven't yet done the big Dylan update I promised, and I'll be letting you know when our new addition arrives!!
Plus... I might get back to crafting for fun once life settles down, so I'll be able to enjoy sharing again...
I'll be back with a 'proper' goodbye post soon...
Take care all...
Me
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